A Good Imagination and a Pile of Junk

As I mentioned, I got the job. It’s now about 10 hours later and I have to say I’m still marginally stunned. That’s not to say I’m surprised really. It was all going in that direction. But as I’ve said all over the social networking universe, I’ve been out of work for so long that I don’t quite know what to do with myself now.

Fortunately (frankly) I’m down to the wire financially and indeed will be called upon to make some embarrassing phone calls to stave people off until the first couple paychecks come through. It may seem an odd thing to call fortunate but I know myself well enough to understand that were I to have a significant cash reserve here at the end of this that I would blow it. The spending itself wouldn’t be such a travesty. In fact I plan on doing just that after a token savings build up.

No, the fortunate part about this is that I now have a bit over a week where I can afford nothing other than some serious introspection and meaningful effort towards a few distinct goals without the distractions of hangovers or $500 dinners.

I’m definitely starting to enjoy the idea. Tomorrow I take care of the administrivia and then I’m set loose on the world.

And I have to say I’m surprised how much is unwinding from my head. Sure, I knew I was covered in emotional cruft and I expected it was a layer thicker and heavier than I realized, but this is crazy. I exhale twice for every inhalation I take. The surest most frightening sign of all this is looking around my apartment at how thoroughly I’ve created a living space that mirrors my mental and emotional state over the last year or so.

I’ve started cleaning that up as it’s so incredibly oppressive and while I have an awfully long way to go, it’s progress towards equilibrium so there’s something of a gravitational pull to get it done.

But now, pushing two o’clock, I’m beginning to feel the effects of my excited lack of sleep last night.

Good night everyone. o/

Tags: job

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